I had this crazy clash of two worlds as I put my baby down
for a nap just now. All swaddled
and fresh, I walked him across the quiet, clean living room to lay him in his
fancy battery operated swing (the one his brother and sister hated and refused
to hang out in…much to the sadness of their momma’s tired arms). And in that
moment, a scene flashed in my head.
Told you Little t hated the swing! ;) |
Back in my clean living room, I am suddenly choked up as I
lay my baby in his fancy American swing.
Because as much work as going to the village is with my little people, as much as we come home dirty and tired
and stressed about potential fleas and diarrhea, we love it. But here, as I
open my refrigerator to quickly find good food, as I freely take walks and let
my kids play at the playground, as I soak in chu.rch and time with family, I
find myself loving that too. I
find myself relishing in the life we are living right now. I am utterly
enjoying not constantly taking tabs on security, not always checking that
things are quiet, not going through the 10 extra steps that it takes to make
life happen in that culture as a foreigner and a woman. Once again my heart breaks and I find
myself tired from the struggle of knowing which way to lean.
On a shopping outing to the local Wal-Mart. It is busy and chaotic and a lot of work, but I LOVE shopping here! |
We do know that God is calling us to embrace this time and
place. Like I said, we are relishing in the joys of life here right now; time
with our kids, time with family and friends, time to grow and learn and
rest. The last year has not been easy
for us and we find God calling us to rest in Him and soak in His goodness in
this place (not really in the physical sense because we have three crazy tiny
people running around our house…so physical rest is kind of a joke). So, we are committed to doing that and
allowing Him to work and speak about what is next in His timing.
Are kids are loving the ease and freedom of life here in the States. And we are finding so much join in when thriving here. This photo is actually in Paris...pretty sure I could thrive there too! |
“Love from the center of who you are; don’t fake it. Run for
dear life from evil; hold on for dear life to good. Be good friends who love
deeply, practice playing second fiddle. Don’t burn out; keep yourselves fueled
and aflame. Be alert servants of the Master, cheerfully expectant. Don’t quit
in hard times, pray all the harder.
Help needy Christians; be inventive in hospitality.
Bless your enemies, no cursing under your breath. Laugh with
your happy friends when they are happy, share tears when they are down. Get
along with each other; don’t be stuck up. Make friends with nobodies, don’t be
the great somebody. Don’t hit back; discover beauty in everyone.”
We feel that learning how to better live out these verses is
what we are to be about in these days.
So while we drink good coffee and play on playgrounds while soaking in
the fall weather, while we dream about and long for that beautiful and crazy
land we love, we will do just that.